This moment

Jan 20, 2021 | My blog

I know a lot of us are struggling right now. It has been a tough year for everyone and harder for some than others. At times I have found myself riding the waves like a competent body surfer, whilst at other times feeling like someone has just pushed me overboard.

I am no stranger to anxiety, but it has been a long while since I have had an ‘episode’. However, this week it came knocking at my door and it was a shock. I felt the fear enter my life again, but somehow, I knew I would be ok, because motherhood has changed me.

I often talk about the struggles and challenges I have faced and continue to. But Aren has also changed me for the better. He brought me out of myself and I pull myself up because my little man needs me, and that brings me strength, as well as a huge loving heart!

So today as I sit here, I just feel like I am encompassing the very emotions I have felt of recent times, minus the anger. Sorrow, longing, anxiousness, exhaustion, hope, love, and gratitude. But most of all a feeling of being present. It’s a mixture of pain and comfort. And its ok. Because if Aren taught me anything, it is that things change, feelings pass, and all that we have is this moment.

It’s just a phase

It’s just a phase

It’s just a phase. This term is probably one the most useful things I say to myself as a mother.